New Year, New Blog, New Me

Happy New Year!

After quite a long pause I’m finally ready to get back to Simply Sarah. Life got a bit crazy there for a while with getting married, having a baby and moving to a different province. The biggest change for me was actually becoming a mom. I didn’t expect to loose myself after having Mia. To be honest, I’m still struggling.  

Processing my new role, our house crumbling around us (literally) and healing from a horrible postpartum complication left me feeling empty & I’m still trying to figure it all out. I thought coming back to Simply Sarah would be a great way to work through some of these things . Im still not sure how itll help but though why not try. Today being the first day of 2019 I thought I’d ride the resolution train to help give me some goals to work on in hopes to help discover what’s missing.

So here I am starting up on Jan 1st.

2019 Resolutions

1. Reducing my single use plastics
   Back in 2012 Matt and I were apart of a documentary about living plastic free alongside other couples and families. We set up some rules, purged plastics and lived plastic free for a whole year.
   Here is our old blog (click me) and the documentary (click me)
   We have become more lax about plastics since then and even more so after Mia was born. Id like to get rid of using plastic bags, disposable cups and plastic water bottles from my life. Those I think are the easiest to purge. In addition to that I would like to be more mindful about the other single use items out there but I’m scared to fully commit to all plastic free a la 2012 just yet.
2. Stress Less
   More specifically about other people’s opinions of me.
   This is hard.
   I’m very self conscious mixed with a bit of low self esteem.
   I stress about others perceptions of me as a person and as a mother. I am who I am and I’m doing the best I can for my daughter & I can’t stress over every comment or eye roll I get because what good does that do?I need to be a duck, let it all roll off.The fact that we don’t own a house and the judgement we get with that has been annoying me for years.
   Living in Vancouver for the last 10 years left us with nothing to show for our hard work and now that we’re in a more affordable city we’re doing our best to get back on track.
   Again, doing our best so why let others comments get me?I need to be that duck.These are only two examples of the many stressors I need to let go of
   Easier said than done but I’m going to give it a shot.
3. Finding the balance of taking care of myself mentally and physically while being a SAHM.
   This balance is hard, much harder than i expected before kids.
   I have to say I could probably count on one hand how many things I’ve done for myself since Mia was born 16.5 months ago. One was a haircut….not exciting.
   I feel like I’m in a quarter life crisis. I’m struggling with who I am as a person after becoming a mom so trying to find things on my own that I can do alongside my role as mother is a big goal this year. I definitely have not been taking care of myself.Nutrition is a goal most people have on their list which is soon forgotten once the calendars turn to Feb. I rely too much on frozen pizza and the stretchiness of my leggings to get me through everyday. Im sluggish and low energy. I never used to be this way so I know I need to do something. Matt has decided to become vegetarian again and although I don’t want to make that commitment it’ll help me think more about fuelling my body better in hopes to have more energy. Will I go on a diet? No. Will I eat cake? hells yes! Moderation is key and I need to become more mindful again.This third “resolution” is pretty general but I’m hoping it’ll take more shape and be more focused as the year progresses.

It will take a lot of trial and error to find success and a better me.

This year expect to see posts and videos on parenting, plastic free crunchy posts, recipes, and the progression of my journey to self discovery. There will be lots of up, downs and maybe some circles but I hope to build a community of support, I know I’m not the only one struggling with some of these things.   Join me on my journey.